Disappointments in Peace, llvl

I’d been doing really hard work on my Five-Fold Goddess presentation with Kelly. When the conference was cancelled, it was really disappointing.This is work I’ve wanted to do for such a long time. And it’s not as if it were going easily… bah.

Now I’ll have to find a new venue, which means trying to decide what stays, what goes… To keep tasking the material and ourselves, what if any difference it makes. It’s part of the process of doing your work, I know that… It’s not just the moments of self-reflection that make our work hard, it’s the fact that the outside world bumps along and things don’t always go the way you’d like them to.

So… it also means dealing with the disappointment. They weren’t getting the registration they needed and they pulled the plug. A wise decision, certainly… but it put at least a temporary halt to the deep fun of working on this… and the urgency…

I’ve been away from the Goddess and that work for a long time. It was nice to have a reason to be back. Now I have to readjust. I can do that.

And I have to mourn a bit. And give myself a bit of Peace about my discouragement, before I go back to slogging away, and finding a way to open it to the world.

So here’s to the uncomfortable parts, because Peace is actually not a straightforward process or journey…

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